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Daily Life'z

Saturday, December 01, 2007

sometimes i just cant believe
sometimes i just think that

i do not deserve it

i cant receive it
cause im not sincere

sometimes im like this,
but everyone told me im like that
and i should be like that
also, i believe if i act like that i will be rewarded
so fearful to be lonely

that's the begginning of all the mistakes
i've been hiding the truth for years
i've been living in such ways: i use jealousy to motivate myself to study, i use envious to change my look, i use hatred towards others to keep courage for myself to continue living.
because i believe in the beauty of pride and belongings. i believe in miracles. i believe in fairy tales. i believe in things i dont get. thus, i ask for more and more. and i fail and fail. and i hate and hate. myself and ppl around me.

finally, He comes to rescue.
finally, from upside, He coudn't stand looking His creation suffers.

just like the analysis of EVE. before meeting V and after V;
these are my perceptions of live after meeting Him. (of course i didnt meet Him by person, but.. hard to explain. you have to experience it by yourself. =])

sometimes, things we do not deserve, we cannot force others to give.
sometimes, surrender is not a bad thing. give yourself some space to breath.
sometimes, being lonely is just what oneself thinks. there's always someone up there watching over us. He is willing to give His love if we ask.
sometimes, impossible means impossible. simplicity is gold.
sometimes, even u screw up something, remember there's always a chance to get back. maybe one year later. maybe hundred years. maybe the life after you.
sometimes, if it is not according to His plan. u meant to fail means u will surely fail. no matter how hard u try.
sometimes, share your love. ppl might need it, just like how much you need it.

those are the theories i apply in my life. maybe you disagree now, but one day u'll know.

no matter who you are, i hope you love yourself. because if you hurt yourself, you are hurting Him as well. i dont wish u to hurt Him, as He is the one who saves my life, again and again.

may Him blesses all the lost soul at every corner in the universe.

thanks for the people for giving me something when i seriously need it. sincerely, thank you =]

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