Saturday, March 28, 2009
i was loved when they hate.
evilly borned in June. i start remembering small little things when unfortunates happened. i was brought up in sorrow of love. unwilling to let me know the truths, making me immature in handling everything in life. though i'm learning to cope with it. but my heart is blended with hatred. their sorrows turned to regrets. i do not understand my situation.
continuos failures in holding on the breath to lit up the fire had turned me become lower. i felt stress and depress. i am fearful to speak up because i got fucked. *oh so fucked up* i believe in fate and i'm still working on it. by now and then i cherish every situation that had been carried out and i have went through. even though there are many obstacles in my life, i will travel with passion. passion of myself but hatred on others. that's what i'm feeling it now. perhaps ego and selfishness drives me crazy, but you never loose hope on me.
life become black and white if you're working on alone. even if it's hatred i would share mine with you and compare together. the person with most anger shouldn't shed more tears, because tears from sadness burn every single happiness that used to be perfect. i can't explain further if i don't play, i hate lies because i am afraid of tricks. fearing to go on further. shed me some lights.
recent listening to koda kumi's show girl. koda kumi featuring fergie that ain't cool.
Been loved @| 11:14 PM |
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
sometimes, you just got to be fucked. even you're in deep shit in front of everybody else, you have to do something or else everything goes into worse. worse things are, the emotions didn't get you to say it out or say it right. probably people might take it as problem, or even critizes you till you get hurt. it would only get better after long while. sometimes, i just couldn't get it as joke, very very seldom. many cases were happened no matter big or small, but the problem relates each other. somehow, i hate that kind of relations. why cant we just laugh and forget? why do we have to take something as "fun"? do we really need that ego. miscommunication leads to hurt, stress or even suicide. i was always here being a lame person. that's what i react to this world and i use the lessons i've gained. however, i really cannot stand people bullying me. i do not know why. even though i was crowded with warm and caring friends who i didn't even know deeply, but i would never ever forgive those people who used to bully me because of their selfishness and sexual needs.
Been loved @| 12:11 AM |
Thursday, March 05, 2009
yesterday was mK's birthday. happy birthday. i miss the days when we were traveling together in standart six. i miss the days when we stared at each other with fierce and questions. thank God we meet each other and bought the memories together. a big smile to everyone who makes a lot of effort in order to keep in touch with each other. hee hee. :)
I wish our friendships never last.
A card that i've made in class. :) Been loved @| 2:25 AM |
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